This morning my heart is full. And at the same time empty.
Last night I got a call from my daughter-in-law that my son and their little girl had gone on a ride on a moped when the front wheel blew out, sending them hard into the ground…Thankfully they were both wearing helmets yet still came away with injuries. My son has 4 broken bones and my granddaughter has stitches in her knee and road rash. But they are going to be OK. My heart has time and time again…throughout the night and this day….offered up gratitude to God for His watch care over them.
And then…..When I called my daughter to let her know last night, she informed me that one of her friends from high school had just lost her 17 year old step-son in a car accident. Died at the scene.
I have to admit that I had guilt because God had spared my family and another family was feeling the weight of losing a loved one. Sometimes life doesn’t seem fair or sometimes it feels like maybe God isn’t watching and things just happen….sometimes we skate by and other times it pounces on us.
I don’t have the answers. But this one thing I KNOW, God is there. God is there when a soul steps into eternity and He is there when life beats us up but leaves us alive.
Today, both of these families are more aware of God than we were yesterday. And we are both reaching out to Him.
13 years ago it was our family as a great dad left us …way too early in our eyes. But I remember what it felt like then too….God was there….as his family gathered around that hospice bed and said one last goodbye…God was there.
Today my heart hurts for that other family but at the same time it is wide open to God’s embrace because I KNOW He’s there…through these moments with my family and through those moments with that other family…. and I can trust Him.
This is the song that has been running through my head this morning:
Tho’ shadows deepen, and my heart bleeds,
I will not question the way He leads;
This side of Heaven we know in part,
I will not question a broken heart.
Chorus:
We’ll talk it over in the bye and bye
We’ll talk it over, my Lord and I.
I’ll ask the reasons – He’ll tell me why,
When we talk it over in the bye and bye.
I’ll trust His leading, He’ll never fail,
Thro’ darkest tunnels or misty vales.
Obey his bidding and faithful be,
Tho’ only one step ahead I see.
I’ll hide my heartache behind a smile
And wait for reasons ’til after while.
And tho’ He try me, I know I’ll find
That all my burdens are silver lined.
Chorus:
We’ll talk it over in the bye and bye
We’ll talk it over, my Lord and I.
I’ll ask the reasons – He’ll tell me why,
When we talk it over in the bye and bye.